*__Promise__*

Thanks..

Seong Hooi..
Done his promise for me..
found me a really beautiful rainbow...
As the before post~

*Hooi,many people said is nice..truly..I Love it so much...
I think now....I know what the meaning of rainbow...
Maybe is just let it be...and....LOVE my LOVELY friend...
Love all of u...I won't selfish just gave my love to someone...
But...is ALL of my friend....U're in my list too...can't run=)
~JESMAY LOVE HER FRIEND AND SUPPORTER~

Some Pic...Hooi edited for me too...
Thanks...Is touched...that's why...
FOr sure..he is in my list~
He told me...one of the picture..
Jusr ONE picture...use 2hour to make it...
7 editer...OMg....Hooi..
Really thanks...U totally make me feel touched...
2hour to face a picture...make me smile...
Thanks~
I love those ALL..
really...I like his edit picture style~







Thanks.. Chun Hoe gor also.. Today..he make a promise..
After my pmr.. Bring me go yam cha..
He promise~ I trust he...
Feel happy and touched..=*) Thanks...

Yen too.. I love she...
She accompany for the whole down time
I have been walked...I hurt I tears...
She....always by my side... the one..who help me....
accompany... We need each other...
Since too long... after my best friend (he) 's ex love...
No more... Female friend this word..
In my dictionary..make me scare..
But..she doesn't... She changed my mind again..
I hope...This time..
She really can do it..
Dun make me disappointed for 'female friend' this word in my dictionary...

Thanks..for my love friend..
I JUST LOVE U,MY FRIEND

still many many friend...
at my back..support me..push me go front..
when I'm fall.. they helped and keep and keep support me..
I can't always list one by one... still have many..too many...
I must know it...dun make them down..
their one action...including many many meaning...
Just me and they know in heart...
Our secret....

From this second...
Begin..NEW..
I use my love...
to my EVERY LOVELY
FRIEND and SUPPORTER
and my sweet family.............
Also my love love idol...
..Khalil Fong..JJ Lim..Lee Hom..
Always support who I want..

Life is still many thing to life...
Fall down many times....
But they keep supporting me....
So...I also must as them...
Keep stand up.....
No more HE still have the new one...
If don't have... I still have myB (w380i handphone)..
It brings many promise...meaning and memory to me...
I dun even hope to change handphone..
If I do..I still Love myB handphone....
I know..many thing...
Can't one way post out...
TOO MANY...truly too many....
I must ONE BY ONE let them all know..
I'm ok....everyone call me cheer....
I must do it..
Life is not just what I think before...

At 1st.. I don't even wan to go school..
But..now...
I feel like... I can't leave without them...
If one day I din go...
Sure they will worry about me..
Or maybe..they need me too...
Feel of scary still have...
But... Have u all...
I think...how bad also....
have them or Yen...
I'm scare to face he..is true...
But...doesn't that...
I need to skip school until the end year?..
Sure not....so...
Think other way...
I have prepared..
Even how tomorrow gonna be..
Or..he gonna leave me alone...
I still must cheer.. MUST....
__-__PRAY FOR JESMAY PLEASE__-__
thanks =*/

__® Rainbow ®__

®Rainbow®
By..Shhhhhhhhhhhhhh..
At my precious blog..
posted this picture too...this..is before...
And..just a light reflection...
But..today...He smsed me..
Said something surprise for me..
At first..
I though he edited most special picture for me..
Cause my few picture..He help me edited..
Such as my this blog 's banner..
I love purple...He helped me..
That time..I'm at Jusco..he also at his grandma house..
On9..and..he msned me...
Thanks =*)
Is touched..every time..
He as my 'evil angel'...Really..
make me feel so touched...
Feel lucky cause of i can know a friend like this..


At His blog..shown this..
This..is the surprise he wanna give me..
True..Not light refraction...Not false...
Is..100% real rainbow....
Our promises...He done it..
How touched is it....
I still remember that..
Rainbow sign as..a new begin..
as..another new way begin...
So...now...
He show me the rainbow..
Is feel surprise and unbelievable...
And..what the meaning..
that..God wanna told me?....






*feel...like..
my mind was just empty..
Dunno why...
???Rainbow???
Means....?...
Am I also..going to have a new begin?..
Is...a unknown answer....
I love Rainbow...
But...Is it..telling me...
HAVE A NEW BEGIN?..
I feel scare...scare of many things...
I'm just a tiny person...
Many things..make me wanna run away...
I'm scare..really scare...

[SORRY FOR THE LONG LONG POST BELOW..But hope can read all..totally what in my mind]

New begin?..
Means...what??...
I should walk out from my memory?..
I should continue no friend?..cause I push my own BEST FRD away...
I dunwan lonely and alone again....
I hope to tell all to my best frd ALL...but...
Did I still have this chance?...
Will my best frd still talk with me?...
I make he sad make he angry..and ask he act dunno me...
Everyday...when I'm alone...
What can I do?..still find he?..
But I don't think my best frd will talk to me..
I miss my best frd...miss all the moment...all the memory...
my best best frd...I miss he...
But..will my best frd know?...
I know in my best frd mind..
I'm wrong...I'm the loser...I'm the one who totally evil..
Be my frd is hard...but he..as my best frd...
He can be my best frd...sure..we have many many memory together
..and..have the most most close friendship...
He done it well..He make me happy..make me smile..and..
now..make me tears too...
what can i do?..
punishment for me?...I accept if good for he..
But...How is he now?..
Just one week...
Our problem come out on July this year...
But..since last Friday...After 3.38am i think...
We not friend anymore...maybe for other..
will think that..we just have our children mind thinking..
But...This bring many many hurt for me...
I keep tears for many time...Maybe some people will feel complicated..
about our relationship...
since my precious blog....still the same..
I think..I still not 100% fully 'New Life Begin'....
Our relationship...
Is from a stranger...become a normal friend...
than good friend..also who can er trust each other by telling our secret...
Turn to super super close friend...maybe for me...
I can't leave he..Already normal that always with he...
Just keep stick together...everything...he or me almost...
was the 1st one who know each other's things...
But..dunno when begin...
Maybe I had know many people..what as people called..
'famous' in school....
For he..just maybe like..I had forget about he...leave he alone..
But I don't...I still took he as most important...
And..maybe we din told or community rightly...
So..he just continue think what in his mind was right...
And...on the time...
come out his 'fans'......And..slowly...
Our relationship changed..
Or should said..is me..always the one..
who know how to pointed other fault but din saw own's..*he always said that
So...ARGUE this word...
come out in our dictionary..
Really complicated....
we argue...for other who know SOME of our problem..
they will said that...
what me and he use those topic to argue...
Is NOT EVEN HAPPEN IN A FRIENDSHIP....
Why..
I also don't...
But maybe...I have to said...
It happen 'CHANGES'....

I unlike his 'fans' stick he and do whatever with he...
He unlike my male frd always treat me good...
I always the one who ask he to said out/said true all the problem..
He always the one who scolded me that..'I just know to point his wrong'..
I will said that I unlike which which girl always how how with he..
He will answer me that..'U'll jealous why I won't?...
I asked he that...'nothing for u to jealous about a RUBBISH(me)'..
He said that 'Just u said....and..u will jealous about those girl..Why I won't?...
But why...din saw that I just call u JUST FOCUS ON ME??....'
I (in my heart)...I can do it if u wan..I'll try my best...
but u don't even said that..
So...if u din said out...
how I know what is thinking in ur mind?

He who the one who keep told me on that day...

'If u wanna less talk with me or what..u can do it..
But if be a stranger??..CAN'T!.....'
I am the one..who...keep pushed he away....Can feel he wan unhappy too..
but..I just feel like....I'm the one who grap gone his smile..make he suffer...
make he wanna fly away from me...make he don't hope to face me...


So,I just think that...I dun hope even..my best frd...or maybe he
have another 'place' in my mind..I don't know too...
It's complicated...But now...
Maybe..just I the one who L he only...
He just treat me as best friend...
I don't hope to loss the one..my best frd..
who most important for me....
But...what i said now..
He don't no...He won't do anything too...
My wrong...is my fault....
This time..totally my fault....
I just hope he can be more happy...
smile as last time...maybe...
one day..he meet another best friend better than me..
make he totally happy...

As above..
Is truly SOME happen between he and me...
Did anyone feel it not Just a Normal friendship??..
But..what is it???...anyone let me know??...
But..maybe..no one will answer me...



Hope he will always be happy...
Today...hardly control my tears...
when I'm eating at restaurant...
Saw 'chao ji ou xiang' at AEC channel...
and...heard one of them...
(TOTALLY CLOSE AND SAME WITH ME)
And said...she also have a BEST FRIEND..
3person relationship..One..is in her heart...
but something happen..so they din talk for 5 year..
And until now the day..other frd call called back she..
and ask about she like that...only know that..
The one...who in her heart....Is gone...forever..
she can't talk to the one who in her heart also her best friend...
No chance..and she sang the song..is to HE...she cried..
That time..when she was telling story...
my eye already feel....wet...just act nothing..
Look at my meal and the TV...
How hard..I control my tears in my eye roll and roll...

Luckily when my tears dropping when i'm typing..
but even my bro also don't no..thanks~

(Part II) Refer the before post as Part I..

Continue..
Hmm..Still in the Kinokuniya..


Like my leg at here without reason..Lols..

Tataaaaaaa....The place have been walked by me..XD
Next time when u at there...think about me too =P




I love this picture..Got feel~

When I'm walking down..natural o..Like like^^


Natural..like like too^^..
and did someone see the word there??
Let me show it =P


See it??..
Kinokuniya^^





I saw this...cute..
and 'he' is my idol when I'm just a baby..
Mummy told me before..
without 'he'.I will keep crying..
heeehe..
Taahhaaataa......

Is he^^..Mickey Mouse =P


Than we go eat 'lunch'..at 3.10pm..
..Eat rice and water cost...RM10.40...>.<

I like My Bao Bei =)


Huhh...
Is done>.<
Some din upload also..heheee..
maybe next time post..
I feel wanna upload than upload..XD

Really thanks to my dear Ah B gor..
But he don't wan to take picture..
He was shy...never mind..
Maybe next year CNY 'pull' he to take picture..
heheee..'pull' again..bad r me>.<

We back by the same how we go to KLCC
Tired..but happy^^
Hope I won't 'black'..XD
Thanks gor care about me..and also help me much..
teach me much...and make me enjoy and relax myself...

Good day I have yesterday^^
same word again
>>I HAVE MY OWN ATTITUDE ...

Photo shoot (Part I)

~Love Like Love~

First time, the first one I need to do..
Is..THANKS to my dear cousin brother,Ah B..
Thanks a lot.. Wake so early...
For my photo shoot..
He know i love it so much...so..
In the holiday..he take out his time and let me happy..
Thanks =*/

7.38am
-Mum awake me..
Between the time..
I keep prepare prepare and prepare.. feel abit scare or worry also..
wish to call someone who can calm me down..
Finally give Yen a call..cause no one else by my side anymore..
8.30am
Ah B gor give me a miscall as he have reached..
8.55am
LRT to Ampang and go by Bus Metro
All the way..keep chit chat and asking blablabla with Ah B=.='

Reach there around 9.30am++ I think
Begin...that time..
Less people..cause still early..
But..a photo shoot is not easy..
The true sure hard and many things happen as me..
Big red ant so many...T.T
The Sun still 'OK'.....Luckily i have prepare early..

~Begin~
*the photo take me more than 3hour time>.<
Let share it some of it..I like so much.. thanks Ah B..

[I like the sunlight~]



[I just like a children=.='.but my cousin wan my NATURAL one^^]



[Enjoying the morning sun ^^ ]



[Thinking my price~..=.=' cause I'm sitting on a 'horse']



[A 'children'...]



[Natural pose..]



[I like my smile..I wan smile always~]



[..I can't play this game anymore..]


[I like NATURAL...^^]



[This flower was special..Like chery..Lols.so I look on it]



[I love my hair..Totally NATURAL..]



[White horse..PLEASE PLEASE bring my....]





[secret]




[OMG!!!!!!!!!!..I most LOVE this..I teach Ah B gor capture wan^^]



[I LIKE Malaysia..Malaysia BOLEH..^^..semangat patriotik wad =P]



[Water is important..We need it..must care water^^]



[This one..LMAO..I'm taking a super BIG BAG..than>.<] *Change place~
[*Not sweat r..is the grass was wet>.<]


After that.. heeehee..Ah B bring me..
enter the Book Fair Hall^^..
Really thanks r..first time also..
I hope go with some friend or who I know..
But no one said that wan me follow too..
Thanks gor..He bring me enter..and told me lot about it^^
Book Fair was big~~*1st time..so I duno>.<
Hehee..But all gonna check body temparature..
The guard at there seems me as not a Malaysian=.=''
Keep look at me ..and take temparature..scary
>.< Sure I bring my Detto hasd wash there..
Daddy said I must~so I bring.. =)


Than after walk all..
Lols..I swear this weekend sure pull daddy go..
Yes..is 'PULL DADDY GO'..XD
I wan many many book...heheee...bad r me>.<
Than eat 'breakfast' at 12.00am+
=.='..Sure I order Chocolate^^
Than gor order a sandwich..
=.=zZ they sandwich expensive than my cake..

Eating..than..heheeee..
Begin~







Than...
Go KLCC for a walk^^
Long time din go already...
Go Kinokuniya..eheheeee...
Saw Harry book!!..^^
Than buy things..
such as book..pencil case..blalbalba~

Go for Petro Science at there..
I mean outside there..
play some science things..hehee...
My Dear Ah B gor really IQ high..OMG
Other can't do it..He just try few times..than..done>.< >
How to use the two things..make a triangle as the red one?
*Think only see the down there~



Answer>>



Really zadao..>.<..I also can't do it.. Few more..all he done it=.=zZ..
Just upload one here..
If not all my reader know the answer already...
Nothing fun.hehee..


Enter Kinokuniya again..
heheeee...
Than..Shhhh..

[Love this one too^^]

[LOVE this too..jehehehe..]

[Love too..]

[Muahahahah..Is my idea =P..saw this book so...XD]


*stay tuned..too much..will continue on next post~
But..I really..really.happy about it..
And this is just for sharing guys...
I HAVE MY OWN STYLE & ATTITUDE..
dun copy me...sorry if u unlike what i said~