Yeah, I'm still in Missing Mode

Yeaa..I still could not "tidy up" my missing mode through everything had happen over Miri.
This week is about the 3rd weeks after I came back from PLKN.

what can I do? I just miss u so much!!

I wanna go back, and I wish the time could be longer for me.
Every day dream about different things that make me feel myself still in the camp.

Every morning open my eye, and I told myself ,"It's over, I'm at KL now."

Even 2.00am something, I suddenly awake because of dreaming in plkn, and I chat happily in the dream..
Once awake everything gone, and I text my best friend over Miri/Limbang.
They even reply me,

"We are always in your heart, by your side.Don't worry, sleep tight sweet dream."♥

Huhhh, everything changed.I appreciate every moment in the camp.

But...still feel not enough for me. I din done perfectly for everyone of them..
Still not yet "tidy up" my mind..my everything..that's why I can't accept something over here.
I can't accept the change.....everything...

This is one of the reason that, Why am I still din update my 3 month diary over there.

I wanna share it to everyone! I wanna tell the whole world that I miss them so muchh!!
And I wanna prove that, Ocean is not the matter of blocking me ..our friendship...our feeling..

Tell me,

what can I do..

To keep this as a best memory,

But not forgetting everyone of u.

Today I miss u so so soo much

IMY :)  ♥ 
Remember what had I told you before?

Please hold on tight, please...don't ever forget our promises.

Even, our distance is separate by ocean.

Tong Hua - Our Song.
Here's the story begin..
"Did u know how to sing this song? can u teach me in chinese version?"
Cute he, he was a Non-Chinese. but he interest in learning.
1st know him, I already sang for him.lol
Quiet funny right?
But he too, I like his voice..


Cinta Arjuna - The another song he sang
He have such a great voice,
nice to listen, nice to sing.
This "Cinta Arjuna" is actually tong hua's malay version.
But don't know why, 
1st listen to he sang..
That was amazing!
I din even have those kind of feeling before through a Non-Chinese.
What is this actually? I can't stop asking myself in my heart.

10 days, after we back to our own place.

Text you, call you and wish you a special day.

Facebook request, I'm the 3rd person who added you.

But until now, keep on saw the number of your friend incresing..

But why u din approve me...I don't understand at all. WHY..

I don't even know who or how to express my feeling.

I'm down, I'm stressful, I'm ....just like a stupid.

A stupid who keep on refresh ur facebook account,

A stupid who keep on waiting for your text,

A stupid who always like everything about you,

A stupid who even looking on ur pic, she will smile.....

What to said?

Still the same, 

God blesss us, If we are belongs to each other.

I wish

The Important Decision in My Life

After get our SPM result...

what waiting for those graduate student..

Is...A new change and important decision of each of us everyone..our life..

生活上又是另一场新的考验诞生，

对于已毕业且拿成绩的SPM生..

一个，很重要的过程

Okay, Back to the SPM result day.

Meet some of my best buddy and friend. =)

 My Ex-School Art. LOL

Don't ask about my results, It just..OKOK ^.^

After taken result, my very 1st outing since I came back from Miri.

Gossshh, I feel like still wanna stay at Miri.

They suggest go and karaoke.

人生有着很很不一样的变化，

我们都不知道下一秒究竟会发生什么事情..

然而我们却要为未来做好最好的准备来应付..

Life keep changing , 

We won't know what will happen on the next..

But we need to 24 hour prepare.

这几天..

头好痛..心好乱..我该怎么办..

要下定论了，问题是我自己都不知道自己究竟要的是什么..

很迷失..

I felt lost,

Headache..moody....I don't know what to do.

My parent need my final decision...But..I...

I don't know what I actually looking for...

What can I do..?

Feel lost..

After 3 month and back to this place again..

停顿了几天的时间，

感觉自己始终还是未能完全适应这里的一切一切..

在那里3个月的时间...

却给我体验了可能在之前再长的时间都未必能体会到的经验.

一分一秒深深刻在我心中，

忘不了..也涂抹不掉..

大家都知道，一切是存在着的.

不是说我们回到了各自原始的地方就因而消失..

那些一切一切 却是永远住在我们心里的 ♥

It's already 5day from March 17(the day I came back)..

But everything seems like...I still can't use to the normal life over here..

I miss them...I miss everything deeply!!

Feel like I still in my dream...the dream that we are still together in the camp.

3 month, maybe for some other..that's a short time..

but...for me..in this 3 month I feel and get every new things that I never had before in my life.

Although we all back to the place that we came from...

In our heart..those memory are forever! won't lost..won't forget.......

Everything..In Our.. ♥

可能·说到现在..

我还在天天夜夜的想着...

也应该说是一种逃避现实的说法..

5天了..

每一天都迷迷糊糊的醒来..

然后呆呆地坐在床上想...

“哎呀！好失败..今天又迟起了..我怎么......”

每一牵动心中的牵挂..

我依然不想醒来..

每天晚上听着那些日子大家哼上口的印尼歌曲..

每天睡前必须翻看回与他们的合照..

隔着一片大海，

就连思念都是很困难的一件事情.

凭着的只是心里的坚持..

电话回不到..甚至打不到...电脑仿佛他们那里线很差无法联系..

种种的阻碍..却是让我更加的想念他们.

Everyday..I wish that just a dream..

I wish that I still be in the camp with all of you..

I still can't accept that we're back to our own place..where we come from..

Every night, I must watch our photo..only can have a sleep tight. :)

I misss u guysss deeeply!!

Anyway, I'll update my 3 month life later.
stay tuned! :)

One thing I believe and never change,

"Some people they can't be together,

But their heart are always stick together"

how sweeet & touched.

As how...Me & You.

Distance is not a matter for us!