十二月的自己

想了好久，也去了好多的地方..

矛盾了好久，最终还是觉得用自己熟悉的语言来上传我的部落格

自从与堂哥交谈的那一次起，就一直有种想把自己去过的每一步、一脚印都记载在部落格上

像是自己的回忆似的记载着，提醒自己那些愉快、真实的回忆

距离上一封部落，感觉一个月之久没上传部落格，感觉空空的

每一次想到要上传部落格总是在矛盾着，

啊不然就是我家小弟每天霸占住我可爱的电脑，

身为好姐姐的我当然要一直发挥忍让精神咯 **ekkeem**

This is life

Life is just simple, happy and charming isn't?

Big news big news !! for me,hahahaaa..
Know what? My very first time park in front of TARC main door.

oh my gosh, I aim for long time since I started to drive to college.

This is the first time that I'm really that lucky and get a "pretty parking".

Thanks for those buses, I drove slowly behind of the bus.
Once I saw a girl who are trying to get in to her car, I just give signal and smile to them.

I even said HI and smile and smile just because she gave me the pretty parking lot cause of maybe she wanted to go somewhere else, IDK.
The rapid bus driver watch the whole process how I park my car.lol

When he pass by, he just stare at me.
Muahahahaha!!
I felt so so excited and happy.
Seriously, I even tried to took picture of my pretty parking lot. :P

Back to college life.

Well,  as what I blogged  yesterday.
I'm having test today,

A Introduction to Transportation Mid-term test.


Me and Kath , both of us STUDY HARD.

and we try to get those pass year question when we're in library.

Proud that I'm hard-working, no more lazy MAY!

For the test,

I just feel that my brain are going to burst!

- Explain the advantages of hub and spoke system in airline transportation

Arrhh, I have no idea how to  explain, I skip that part that's why.

One more test to go tomorrow !

All the best to me thank you.

(:

❥ Fate C:

Lincoln Paul Lambert

A cute guy with a big smile.

This can really change people mood.

The most charming guy that I ever seen before.

Make people feel comfortable and the best thing is I feel happy, yeah!!

He lights on my day, awwww..
Meet someone 7 to 8 times in one day? Yes. It's him !

Charming smile, sunshine smile,fair skin, tall..

I like when he saw me and he smile to me.
His smile was just charming, seriously. Influence people to smile like him too.

This is fate right? Since the very first time ever we meet each other.
In the first semester, and I still remember the very first time you smile to me when we're still stranger.
Yup, in sport complex. heheee..
Everything happen just like a miracle, start from the first day we both smile to each other.

I point to you and you get shock on that time.
We both just smile and wave our hand just like a kid.

Smile like nobody business, because we like it!

I wonder, if you talk to me.. what will happen?
Well, just an imagination.
Anyway, just a random blog.
And I feel thankful and lucky because of you.

Last but not least,

He's CUTE :3

Well, I'm having test in this three day.

Thanks god, I feel that my account test today going on smoothly.

Transportation and Geography test to go!!

Cash book in account isn't that hard right?

I actually fall in love with account slowly.

I'm a student fail from form4 - form5 in account.

But,

see! Now I still studying and I like it =)

Tomorrow Transportation Test.

It's TTT ! 

Looks like I'm crying , lol

I get the tips like talk about the low cost carrier air-plane.

The unique transportation something..

I promise I'm going to have my revision online by BLOGGING in the future.

oppsss, that's the top secret man! xD

Keep following my blog, thank you !

**Heart shape**

I'm lucky

Yes, it's my parents!

My lovely one always..

I know that I'm always the glad cause of I'm their daughter.
It's a gift of god, seriously.. I love my family.

Also, the latest one....(stay tuned)

All about sport, for a better life in a better way.
They get me the best quality which they din even use it.
Just, god.
Thankful.



I wanna be their daughter forever, and be bring them to the whole world.
Work hard and get a lot and lot and lot of money for them :3

The problem..

Seriously, I'm just scared.

Can't even overcome those car on the road.

I just don't know why.
and really sad about it, feel like I'm useless.

God, please tell me what to do.

A precious ever lesson ! (:

Life is easy, so we try to make it wonderful :)

Thanks to my cousin, his word really change my mind and answer a lot of question mark in my life.
That's just a simple , easy thing to make something that I wish to become real and successful.
Oh my god, everything is just.. amazing.

Life is just like that, isn't?

Well,
The new change, new begin, new MAY.
This will be a zero point of me for the future.

Life for myself, be the way who I am.

Things will changing step by step.

Lovely life.

=)

Leave it to faith, but I want to go... ):

在属于与不属于自己的争执间，
我.. 选择了留给缘分


矛盾与错乱、心跳与辛酸
我..选择了平静


曾经听过一句我很难忘很有意思的话..

手中的鸟儿，放开让他展翅高飞，自由自在..快快乐乐的在天空上飞翔着..
如果最终，那曾经在你手中..被你疼爱呵护的鸟儿..
会自然的从新回到你手中、那这鸟儿就是你的
相反的，要是最终..
他走了、或许与其他鸟儿快乐的享受着..
又或者飞去观赏更美更美的美景..
那，你也要笑着.. 因为 他独立了

动人却凄惨.. 美丽而触动人心
我手中的鸟儿，或许在自己的记忆中
我不曾放手，因为想他一直都在
负面的说，其实我害怕他飞了就从此也没用归来的一天的了


担心的，始终会来吧..
是我们的考验，还是想说明他只是个 飞过的鸟儿
他很忙 仿佛一秒都停歇不到
他很忙 千万个像我这样的女生 一样想着他  又怎么能肯定他注重我一个呢


心情怪异，我只知道 自从遇见了他
我想的有那么多了一点点 思念有那么小小的每一分都在想
每次总会更新看他的动态  希望他回复/对我与众不同

当你觉得你喜欢的人也喜欢你的时候，那 就表示你想多了

完全很扯很合理的吧..哈哈 
我每次都会在就这一个而已，就一个而已败给了自己！
好蠢

我只是想更深一步懂你，

真的真的很想用行动告诉你 那份真心

别老是以为自己一个的   到处羡慕别人

其实，我就在这里

呵呵

至于是不是我

回到刚刚，我  都交由天处理

好想去，真的真的好想去

因为那里，是我们第一次相遇的地点

我想 真的很想 一直一直

那心中的心愿

是否会成真？
Uncle Lim , 我们的秘密..你还记得吗

= ）

Learning

"MayMay sweetie, one who admires you greatly is hidden before your eyes."

look into your darling's eyes this night - they could be full of promises. This could be a good turning point for you both.


(:

Memory always with me (:

the strong attraction between you and your admirer will bring changes for you both in the next month

 you'll feel hopeful and optimistic with your admirer in the vicinity so keep on with your generosity

the sun will shine more brightly for you and your admirer in the future and you will discover your desire to communicate

exploring this new sensation will be wonderful for you. 

Hur hur hur?
Life are normal, but why am I feeling so weird?
Like not complete because of losing something ,hhhmm?

I'm alone now, 

but I knew that u're waiting for me at the end of the point.
That's why I din felt lonely,

because of you.

Tired. Assignment. Dream. Money !

But still, IMY  ♥

People comes and goes but the memories is forever ♥ (:

"MayMay sweetie, you have a secret admirer."

Is that a joke? haha!

Feel down and moody,

what can I do for get the thing that I dream in my list?
Why ?

Those word are that hurt, I pretend like nothing or like not listening..
It's just to pretend that I am nothing on what are people talking about.
Life is hard , I just wish to live for myself.. Just wish give myself a better treat perhaps.

Is it hard?

Everything, every time.. thought Im getting close and close to my target.

But at last there is always nothing or the worse part, there sure will be something that stop me.

Well, I know I shouldn't stop by all those problem..

Headache !!

Why my life become like this?

I need to be more hard-working and more independent more punctual and all those thing that I hate which appear in myself.

What is the first step I should go on? study? but I can't get anything, I mean..

it's still far far away from my dream list.
For the very first, I wish to get a better phone. 

:'(

Totally down, life sucks !

Make use of the time in the best possible way? so that your heartbeat won' go away?

" in the week to come you can expect more from your admirer"
Is it true? where are you than..

那种感觉、就很像白痴

既然因为朋友说我太吵了、不是每个人喜欢

所以把自己跟那傻佬也隔得远远的..

以为他不回复我信息是显我烦

才知道原来是他电话有问题，很迟才收到我的信息呢

他是否有话对我说啊? 呵呵

还时久了就会习惯我的长气

我真的那么长气哦..hhmmmmmm

另个他，却为了一样的事情[French]

读书放学回家了还为我找资料..感动 = )

说不用回报，说他很Sweeet 对我这么好..真是傻瓜一个

哈哈哈哈

因为曾经后悔过，所以再一次接触时会显得格外特别的用心

因为后悔了、在接下来的时间都会更加更加用心花时间去了解

因为机会来了，

所以这一次...我一定会费劲所能的去完成之前遗憾

谢谢你

就突然很想说的话

加油！

给你、自己、还有我想祝福的所有人

My awesome ever September !

(Ignore my dope stupid smile.haha)

Ever tried before a sweet guy friend that know everything you need and things that you might miss out or something, but he will always be the one who remind and give me the things that I need, it's just like magic =)
Finally , I'm ready to blog about my awesome dearest ever !

有没有试过在很无助很无助、四处寻找只希望能有个人能伸出援手..帮帮自己

有没有试过在很慌张、很紧张导致东西全忘了带...在不知所措的情况下，希望有人出现相助

又有没有试过在学习一样新的事物，完全不明白不了解的事物..一个傻佬从蛮远的地方背着带着那本只为教我的重重的课本来给我资料呢..

我有， 他！和他！

那个傻佬，每天讲看不到其他的人..因为眼里只有may may..

还说他比我的DJ好，应该爱他多一点..
有够力白痴的人说的话叻..

还一个他说我每次很38、说如果我敢做出某某举动..会当不认识我..哈哈

知道吗..

那天我为了《金视奖》的票，真的跟家人谈得哭了..根本没有人愿意就带我去电台.

而我自己不会，又是个不敢驾车的人.. 怎么能够在只有一天的时间到达那里呢?

那种感觉，背对着家人按着电话..其实眼睛已经湿透了

最后，因为他. 和他

他劝导我小心、还担心叫我不要穿太窄呢..叫我加油突破自己

另个他则教会了我、还说等我到了那里就来陪我..带我到处走走.

那种感觉、真的很难描述

除了感动..还是感动

那种感觉就好像说，我一辈子都会记得这两个人..

我们一直会在一起，不会分开

为了我新要学习的法文，而却对那全部一无所知. 那一刻脑袋里出现的就是，“我要去找他”

然而那个他因为不方便帮我复印，干脆带着重重的书来给我帮我

因为当天赶时间去更新护照才去见我的他们，结果笔啊等等的都没带到.

还记得我赶去那里时，他第一句就问我....."你样子怎么这样?不舒服哦?"

其实我只是因为要找他走了很久才找到，感觉很可怜因为很无助又很难才找到他，哈哈

还是他在出发之前想象我会带怎样的书包，里面带的会不会少了什么..

所以就为我准备了名贵好用笔还有纸张 给我，这个人想得好周到呢！

感觉我们之间都好奇妙，

虽然不是每次在一起，也不常见面

然而那种聚在一起的时候那种感觉永远是那么的棒

心里其实都很清楚知道

我们都很爱对方

其实还有很多很多呢，

我怕我再写下去他们又说我肉麻了

不过..心底话

生命因为有了他们，很多的沮丧都有他们在我身旁

互相扶持、爱戴、关心、为对方加油

心里默默的知道

我们都是为对方的

Enchanted ...?

"right at the moment when you least expect it your admirer will surprise you"

别离开，好吗?

原本好好的情绪，听到卢卡出奇的反常表现..真的吓到了

好好的大家庭、大家还沉醉在那演唱会欢乐的气氛中的时候，

却突然传来了一个让人原本高高在上的心情，都跌到谷底的最深处了..

到底怎么了..

一千一万个不愿意

根本不想任何一人的离职、更不想从此少了某某某的声音

在节目中，那把声音带领着我们向前..

把我们从不开心的事情拯救出来

一夜夜的烦恼

因听到大家某某某的声音而远离了

即使是一个人的深夜里，

也不觉得孤单

可以说其实这些都是开玩笑闹着的吗?

是不是这一次的揾到你要来玩大点、让大家停止呼吸而担心的那种?

停止了好吗?

大家真的吓到了..

都快哭了

别闹了

七大男人的你们、

不要闹了..

把大家吓坏了你们该怎么办? 

: (

有时宁可成为让人嘲笑的丑小鸭、也不愿意当个不会游泳的天鹅 ;)
至少丑小鸭可以让你们笑..

Now your admirer realized that your heart is sincere, are you sure about it?

Don't lie please...hhmmm

True ? or False ?

Should I ? or Should I no...?

"Changes may happen around you and what you want could magically coincide with your partner's desires"

Best day ever & special feeling of new born awesome friendship.
Stay tuned = )
My menstruation cell is killing me ....

respond to your smile ?

" you want to open your heart and share the love you feel - this is a good opportunity for you and your sweetheart to speak from the heart. Think positive and things will go well. Because of the effort you put into everything, it won't be hard to attract the love you allways dreamed about."

IMY ;)

 "respond to your admirer's smile and you'll experience an excitement you've not felt before."

Far ? or Near?

Where is He?

The question that keep on appear in my mind.

Is it far away from me?

- nope, take 1hour to go can reach to his place.
Is it near with me?

- nope,he wasn't anyone that really close to you.

Can anyone tell me far or near? near or far? far or near? idk..

He gave me the feeling of unstable. But is that his fault? I don't think so. I'm nothing for him.

This is the problem that I worry since the first day I had some special feeling with him.

Who is HE? He is who? I know it sounds weird.

He always talking On-Air to everybody. But for me is like special feeling, wtf am I thinking about? What to said? feel like slapping myself. ergh..

Who am I ? and what's in my mind?

I'm nothing =) I am nothing !
I don't know myself.

Things like getting worse, please save me

Someone answer me?

Tell me that you are always there for me.

How funny am I. huh !

Who is the angel in your heart..?

"your dreams are about to come true as you're so passionate about what you want - you can expect a surprise in the near future.''

Hey people, I'm having a totally awesome September ever!
Don't agree huh??
Take a look.

Outing with Boon Boon 16 Sept 2012 , Pav & KLCC

Get my vip ticket at tv station and meet Yang Yang for a short shop. 1 Utama

and also..... Golden Awards 2012 !! Once again special thank for onefm

Meet my genting trip friend and my awesome leader, LUCAS !!

okay, artist are pretty and handsome which keep on and on pass by in front of me.
hahaaa, but just...watch but din take any photo... nevermind larh, as long as it is a great memory ;)

Click it for View more =)

最近的心情，真的很大波折..

了解我的人知道、不了解者继续不了解吧

只是真的真的..

是自己吧，过不了的是自己的那关

究竟什么问题? 说不出、却不表示不存在

生活就是这样吗?

真的很多事情都这样. 总是不顺利..

是哪里出了问题吗?

好乱、好烦

头好疼..晕晕的.. 真的很辛苦

连第二个sem的第一堂课都无法出席..

怎么了..怎么了..怎么了...

谁说你心中的天使?

傻瓜、你究竟在干什么?

when he's near..

"The flame has been lit - note the interest in your admirer when he's near"

I'm not that tough actually.. Let those tears flow into my heart.. :)

Everything will be alright.  Because of that vip ticket, I've gone through lot of feeling in just only 1 situation.

往心里的泪，真的无声无气..

在阿姨家，给一个个阿姨拨电. 为的是希望有个阿姨能载我到办公楼去索票

一次一次的被拒绝、声音都发抖了

因为忍哭 ;D

很怕面对一次一次的拒绝，因为我真的会哭

可是在妈妈阿姨面前我不能掉泪！

我必须给她们看到我很勇敢，我在突破..我不在乎..我很坚强 

huhh~老实说..

到最后我还是背对着她们，按电话时在檫泪了

好辛苦！

我讨厌自己的无能、讨厌自己没那个胆量

所以才拿了牌也不敢驾车

很懦弱

很讨厌

恨死

话说回来，

为了那一切的种种.. 我真的觉得值得的

每一件事发生，背后都有着特定的意义.. 这是我一直相信着的

谁知道那会不会是你? ;)

可爱的你，

还和那些票合照..真是的

Our favourite song ;)
This song is pretty touching..hhmm

Love it !

晚安了，我想你